Because I got a really lousy start.

Less than 30 minutes into 2007, I lost my Motorola E398 (the 4th time I lost my main line). We (Jun Wei and I) got to Harbourfront MRT station just to find out that there are no more trains connecting to my home area.

Because of the Countdown party at VivoCity, God knows how many people were swarming the area, trying to get a cab. We had to walk a good distance away from the crowd before flagging a cab (not to mention we had to ‘snatch’ it from those who walked along) to get home.

I got home to find one of my babies very weak and barely able to stand without shaking. How my heart broke when she crawled unsteadily towards the carrot I gave her. I ended up holding her and feeding her the carrot.

I was exhausted but I did not want to sleep. I had this uncanny thought and fear that Moonlight would be gone once I wake up. It has happened to my previous hamsters before.

So I read Roswell fanfiction online to keep me up. By 7.30, I checked on Moonlight one more time before resting on the sofa near her tank.

I dozed a bit and was awakened by my sisters three hours later. The first thing they told me as I looked at them with sleepy eyes was “I think one of your hamsters is dead”.

The moment I heard that, I jumped out and looked into her tank.

She was gone. Just like that. Lying there in an odd position for a hamster beneathe the water bottle… My heart just broke.

She’s still there. I can’t bear to touch her. I can’t bear to throw her out. I just can’t bear the fact that she’s gone.

I’m sorry to all who reads a depressing entry for a new year. I can only wish everyone a half-hearted “Merry New Year”.